Day 5, Uni

I'm sitting at my desk using my laptop with the radio on and a mug of instant hot chocolate next to me and some open text books.

I've collected all my text books now and went to the Sports & Societies fayre earlier too, in which I signed up to join the Christian Union, wanted to find the Psychology Society but I couldn't see their stall anywhere.

I feel a bit cornered in this here. I'm not really 100% sure which of the books I should be reading yet so have been flicking through a Study Skills one, which to be honest is a bit useless- I already know about how to take notes and be organised...

Lately some lads from Singer Hall have visited each night, and it has cheered me up- they can be really funny. I get on really well with one of them especially, he seems to be on my wave length and we have had quite a few conversations together. I don't think they're coming round tonight so I'm not sure whats going to happen. The girls might go out clubbing or something I guess... may do some yoga to fill the time gaps. I'm definitely not going out 'clubbing' with them again. Last time I wish I hadn't said yes as soon as I stepped out into the night but waited until they were ready so I was safe walking home.

I really want to take some photos of everyone together but I'm a bit too shy to ask! It does feel natural being around people now and living in the flat but I don't know if I can just ask for some photos, I don't want them to think I'm any more lame than they think I am already!

It's been so tiring sitting in lecture halls all the time, I find myself drifting off sometimes- they are just so warm and the screen is massive which means you don't really have to concentrate on anything that much.... perhaps once I get into my course more and onto some proper interesting stuff things will pick up a bit?! Intro talks into what you'll be studying are not particularly thrilling.
Last night I had a cry, okay, a yowling weeping session.... embarrassing but I've heard one of the girls doing the same the other morning which makes me feel a bit more normal.

I'm trying to stay involved in things, got my door open nearly all the time and I'm usually sitting in the kitchen watching TV with them all. I also use orange juice when drinking games come into play, I'd quite like to have a go at them actually but I'm a bit too nervous, I've never tried anything except a little champagne and bucks fizz.
One of the other lads doesn't drink much so maybe I could have a sip of something like he does. I'm really going to have to be careful because it stops my medication from working and can cause more depressive side effects....

SO MANY THINGS TO THINK ABOUT!!! yet I feel like there's pretty much nothing for me to do.... welcome to my uni life.