Monday, 27 August 2012
Saturday, 11 August 2012
slip ups
I let my emotions get the better of me the other day, I self harmed, something which I haven't done in at least 1-2 years. I used to cut and bruise myself all the time to deal with horrible thoughts or to punish myself but it eventually phased out, with my imagination taking its place.
I've just been feeling so low lately and I felt so numb I just got some scissors and snipped at my skin. I didn't do much damage or anything so in the long term that was good. I rang up my adult services team and left a message for my worker so when she gets off sick leave I can talk to her about how I'm feeling. I don't think I can trust her much though because I only see her once a month for about 15 minutes, which is nothing, she even wants to discharge me when I go to Coventry in September rather than transfer me there. It just feels like another hassle to add to the list.
Hopefully there won't be many more slip ups just yet.
Stay strong x
I've just been feeling so low lately and I felt so numb I just got some scissors and snipped at my skin. I didn't do much damage or anything so in the long term that was good. I rang up my adult services team and left a message for my worker so when she gets off sick leave I can talk to her about how I'm feeling. I don't think I can trust her much though because I only see her once a month for about 15 minutes, which is nothing, she even wants to discharge me when I go to Coventry in September rather than transfer me there. It just feels like another hassle to add to the list.
Hopefully there won't be many more slip ups just yet.
Stay strong x
Tuesday, 7 August 2012
Goals
This picture was shared by someone I know on Facebook from the page Heal Your Life
Someone once told me its important to celebrate every goal you achieve/come closer to achieving. It's 10:25am and so far I have achieved:
Stay strong, Ell xx
Someone once told me its important to celebrate every goal you achieve/come closer to achieving. It's 10:25am and so far I have achieved:
- Breakfast
- Getting dressed
- Taking back library books
- Going to the doctors
- Getting my medication
- Taking my medication
- Checking emails/facebook
- Writing this post
Stay strong, Ell xx
Monday, 6 August 2012
Ice Cream
Ok, so its been forever since I let myself have a treat and I did today, with persuasion from my Mum, but I had a scoop of ice cream!
We went to Buckingham and sat in a proper italian gelato (ice cream) shop and it wasn't very busy at the time so it was really relaxed and not too stressful.
Normally with food I don't try to think about what I'm tasting or swallowing because it makes me feel really sick but today I did and let me tell you, I love Strawberry Gelato :)
We went to Buckingham and sat in a proper italian gelato (ice cream) shop and it wasn't very busy at the time so it was really relaxed and not too stressful.
Normally with food I don't try to think about what I'm tasting or swallowing because it makes me feel really sick but today I did and let me tell you, I love Strawberry Gelato :)
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)