I let my emotions get the better of me the other day, I self harmed, something which I haven't done in at least 1-2 years. I used to cut and bruise myself all the time to deal with horrible thoughts or to punish myself but it eventually phased out, with my imagination taking its place.
I've just been feeling so low lately and I felt so numb I just got some scissors and snipped at my skin. I didn't do much damage or anything so in the long term that was good. I rang up my adult services team and left a message for my worker so when she gets off sick leave I can talk to her about how I'm feeling. I don't think I can trust her much though because I only see her once a month for about 15 minutes, which is nothing, she even wants to discharge me when I go to Coventry in September rather than transfer me there. It just feels like another hassle to add to the list.
Hopefully there won't be many more slip ups just yet.
Stay strong x
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