Monday, 25 March 2013
Courage
Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the quiet voice saying, "I will try again tomorrow.” - Mary Aanne Radmacher
Thursday, 21 March 2013
March 20/21
March 20th: Lovelife
In a relationship, anniversary March 13th <3
March 21st: share the things you saw on social networking sites today
So this is basically the best thing to appear on Facebook, EVER....
#I'mSoReady!!!!
In a relationship, anniversary March 13th <3
March 21st: share the things you saw on social networking sites today
So this is basically the best thing to appear on Facebook, EVER....
#I'mSoReady!!!!
Monday, 18 March 2013
March 17/18/19
March 17th: In Your Make-up Bag
Dainty Doll concealer and foundation (shade 001), compact powder blusher, about 4 lots of mascara, eye liner (both brown and black), tweezers, nail scissors, compact mirror, lip glosses, red lip stain, numerous nail polishes, two eye shadow palettes, ulcer gel, lip balms...
March 19th: Who were you 5 years ago?
Five years ago I was 14 years old, shy and scared of the world- of school, of people, of life- in a horrible school just about to take my SATs exams before moving to another secondary school.
I still was very much a book-worm and most of my time was occupied on this or with schoolwork. I would have just started seeing Peggy my CAMHS worker and would have been busy trying to beat the system to avoid admission to an ED unit... the joys of childhood, eh?!
Dainty Doll concealer and foundation (shade 001), compact powder blusher, about 4 lots of mascara, eye liner (both brown and black), tweezers, nail scissors, compact mirror, lip glosses, red lip stain, numerous nail polishes, two eye shadow palettes, ulcer gel, lip balms...
March 18th: Bullet your Day
- Got up at 10.30am
- Lecture at 11am on Research Methods, specifically testing for reliability/validity of questionnaires
- Ran home as forgot purse, then headed back to uni
- Met up with group members to complete our presentation on an implementation for dyspraxia in schools
- Attended a lecture for our Psychology in Context unit outlining the coursework portfolio we are to submit after Easter
- Had a 20 minute break sitting around campus
- Met as a group again and did our presentation- was successful!
- Headed home to see K for a cuppa, gossip and some cake :-)
- Made a shopping list and stocked the fridge after going to Sainsburys
- Headed to the uni library for a Peer Mentoring session
- J came over and we spoke about signing a contract on student housing for next year
- Dinner
- Sat with K and watched the film Chalet Girl
- Sat with K and headed to the kitchen for another cuppa and to watch Embarrassing Bodies whilst D cracked us up
- ...text conversation with M....
- Headed to write this post
- .....then bed... hopefully!
March 19th: Who were you 5 years ago?
Five years ago I was 14 years old, shy and scared of the world- of school, of people, of life- in a horrible school just about to take my SATs exams before moving to another secondary school.
I still was very much a book-worm and most of my time was occupied on this or with schoolwork. I would have just started seeing Peggy my CAMHS worker and would have been busy trying to beat the system to avoid admission to an ED unit... the joys of childhood, eh?!
Saturday, 16 March 2013
Current Playlist
Candy~ Robbie Williams
Broke up the family~ The Milk
Don't you Worry Child~ cover by~ Olly Murs
News...
You're the first to hear this news. I'm in a relationship with a guy, eek. Not going to go into details but it was made official on facebook last night, exciting stuff x
March 15/16
March 15th: Family. What is it to you?
Family is the staple of my life, I treasure the simple moments when we're all snuggled on the sofa or sitting on a beach just in each others presence. It's always nice to connect back to your roots to feel safe and supported.
March 16th: Your Style
Typically its jeans, tank top and cardi teamed with black trainer pumps/dolly shoes. I do like to dress up though, wearing pretty dresses and skirts (although these are rare occasions). Last night I wore a pink/white dress, the top half was white lace and the bottom was a peachy pink colour, I felt pretty in it; there is something awesome about getting dressed up and feeling like a totally different person, as if you are floating outside your body.
I mostly wear my love links bracelet and some simple studs but like to layer my wrists with beads and charms every now and again too; especially with simple gem stone bracelets like amethyst and adventurine. I usually wear a simple necklace too, a chain with a small pink ball charm on it or a chord with gem stones on it. I love pretty jewellery.
In terms of earrings I go for simple pearls, pretty flowers or entirely opposite with dangly designs or large hoops :)
Family is the staple of my life, I treasure the simple moments when we're all snuggled on the sofa or sitting on a beach just in each others presence. It's always nice to connect back to your roots to feel safe and supported.
March 16th: Your Style
Typically its jeans, tank top and cardi teamed with black trainer pumps/dolly shoes. I do like to dress up though, wearing pretty dresses and skirts (although these are rare occasions). Last night I wore a pink/white dress, the top half was white lace and the bottom was a peachy pink colour, I felt pretty in it; there is something awesome about getting dressed up and feeling like a totally different person, as if you are floating outside your body.
I mostly wear my love links bracelet and some simple studs but like to layer my wrists with beads and charms every now and again too; especially with simple gem stone bracelets like amethyst and adventurine. I usually wear a simple necklace too, a chain with a small pink ball charm on it or a chord with gem stones on it. I love pretty jewellery.
In terms of earrings I go for simple pearls, pretty flowers or entirely opposite with dangly designs or large hoops :)
Mannequins
This is a picture of Mannequins in Sweden that has supposedly taken the world by 'storm'. The story can be found here
Some people have commented that mannequins like this will promote obesity etc. but I don't understand how; these are supposed to be 'average' sized figures. What surprises me is how life-like they actually are, I'm drawn to their knees... I thought it was just mine that looked like that same as that and the shape of the stomachs aren't totally flat, its nice to know that my body isn't an abnormality in society. I forget that images are altered and transformed to be 'perfect' which is a dangerous thing to do in this modern day.
I do think that it would be really weird going into a shop with mannequins like this though, it would take a lot of getting used to, I can't see it happening any time soon that's for sure but some sort of progress is still positive!
What do you think about them? Positive or Negative?
Ell <3
Wednesday, 13 March 2013
March 13/14
March 13th: If you had a superpower what would it be?
To fly because that would be simply awesome.
March 14th: Goals and Aspirations
A few from the top of my head, in no particular order...
To fly because that would be simply awesome.
March 14th: Goals and Aspirations
A few from the top of my head, in no particular order...
- Finish university
- Let go of past hurts
- Lasting, fulfilling and nourishing friendships/relationships
- To inspire someone
- To help people overcome mental illness/difficulties they face
- To read the whole bible
- To have a happy family of my own
- Live a long fulfilled life
...I can't think of anymore right now, I do have a list of things I want to achieve in my life though but its incredibly long and boring so won't go into details! :)
Monday, 11 March 2013
Something massive.
So, I did something massive. I prayed for HIM. Yes HIM.
I prayed that God would fill his heart with love and make him change his ways.
I'm not ready to pray for myself about HIM yet, I always ask God to help me when I'm stuck with it but this is a small step in the right direction I feel.
After all the hurt and pain, emotionally and physically, he caused me I think I've done well to be able to step away from the situation. I realise that he needs help before he causes more harm to others, maybe more harm than he did to me, maybe harm that someone will never be able to rise against. I realise I'm slightly hypocritical writing this as I haven't technically 'risen' above what he did but I'm getting there and progress is better than being stuck in that place where I was a few years ago with HIM.
One day I might even be able to name HIM. I can't yet but maybe one day I will be able to feel at peace with what happened and feel comfortable enough to let all that pain go.... I think that there will always be that hope. It's the thing I cling onto most, there is always and will always be hope.
I prayed that God would fill his heart with love and make him change his ways.
I'm not ready to pray for myself about HIM yet, I always ask God to help me when I'm stuck with it but this is a small step in the right direction I feel.
After all the hurt and pain, emotionally and physically, he caused me I think I've done well to be able to step away from the situation. I realise that he needs help before he causes more harm to others, maybe more harm than he did to me, maybe harm that someone will never be able to rise against. I realise I'm slightly hypocritical writing this as I haven't technically 'risen' above what he did but I'm getting there and progress is better than being stuck in that place where I was a few years ago with HIM.
One day I might even be able to name HIM. I can't yet but maybe one day I will be able to feel at peace with what happened and feel comfortable enough to let all that pain go.... I think that there will always be that hope. It's the thing I cling onto most, there is always and will always be hope.
March Challenge 11/12
March 11th: What makes you smile?
Bunny rabbits, flowers, the sunshine, seeing other people happy, hugs, watching a good movie, crossing things off of my to-do list, glee, being with friends/family/special people, adding another book I've read to my reading log, summer, beaches, angel delight, getting a letter from Laurel.....
March 12th:What's in your purse?
(seeing as this is American I'm guessing it means purse as in handbag so I'm going to describe the rubbish I have in the one I'm currently taking to uni)
Diary, Uni notepads, Alpen cereal bar, receipt to say I have returned my library books, a questionnaire for a study I agreed to take part in, pack of tissues, a pencil and pen, lip gloss, one fruit mentos sweet left originally from a whole pack and my purse.
My purse is probably of more interest so I will also list its contents... loyalty cards, taxi firms number, emergency contact numbers, ID, Love monkey card (an Edward Monkton creation- "LOVE MONKEY. He stands for LOVE. He stands for HAPPINESS. He stands for TRUTH. He stands for BEAUTY. Let us, like LOVE MONKEY, stand for what we HOLD most DEAR"), a few receipts and Sainsbury's vouchers and a rail card. I also have a Harrods key ring attached to the purse which I bought on my 18th Birthday and a little card that reads....."LORD help me to remember that nothing is going to happen to me today, that YOU and I can't handle together" and as ever not much money!!
Spent the evening with one of my flat mates enjoying the sights of Zac Efron in The Lucky One and Charlie St Cloud... excellent films!
Love ya all, Ell xxx
Bunny rabbits, flowers, the sunshine, seeing other people happy, hugs, watching a good movie, crossing things off of my to-do list, glee, being with friends/family/special people, adding another book I've read to my reading log, summer, beaches, angel delight, getting a letter from Laurel.....
March 12th:What's in your purse?
(seeing as this is American I'm guessing it means purse as in handbag so I'm going to describe the rubbish I have in the one I'm currently taking to uni)
Diary, Uni notepads, Alpen cereal bar, receipt to say I have returned my library books, a questionnaire for a study I agreed to take part in, pack of tissues, a pencil and pen, lip gloss, one fruit mentos sweet left originally from a whole pack and my purse.
My purse is probably of more interest so I will also list its contents... loyalty cards, taxi firms number, emergency contact numbers, ID, Love monkey card (an Edward Monkton creation- "LOVE MONKEY. He stands for LOVE. He stands for HAPPINESS. He stands for TRUTH. He stands for BEAUTY. Let us, like LOVE MONKEY, stand for what we HOLD most DEAR"), a few receipts and Sainsbury's vouchers and a rail card. I also have a Harrods key ring attached to the purse which I bought on my 18th Birthday and a little card that reads....."LORD help me to remember that nothing is going to happen to me today, that YOU and I can't handle together" and as ever not much money!!
Spent the evening with one of my flat mates enjoying the sights of Zac Efron in The Lucky One and Charlie St Cloud... excellent films!
Love ya all, Ell xxx
Sunday, 10 March 2013
March Challenge
I came across a challenge today that I would like to take up and share with you. Each day there is something that I will talk about or write about on my blog.
Even though I've missed 9 days so far I'm confident I'll try and do the whole month (and will even back date to catch up)!
1st March: Introduce yourself
Hi! I'm Ellie, I'm 19 years old and am currently at university in my first year studying BSc Psychology. I've been blogging for a while now, but the most updated one is indeed Trouble Soul, it's more of a diary and permanent fixture in my life than the others.
I live in student halls (although really good ones) and live with 5 others in the flat; we get on relatively well.
I've struggled with lots of difficult things in my life and I'm told that this makes me a stronger person. I don't think I'd be here today without some special people in my life who have helped me through some extremely awful times.
My favourite thing to do is 'escape' from life; I am very passionate about reading and love sinking my teeth into a great book and when coupled with a cup of tea I'm in heaven. I also enjoy listening to music and singing (although that doesn't mean I'm very good) and I love art work too. I took A-Level and GCSE Art and have found my creativity again by attending a local art class in town.
I enjoy romantic comedies; one of my favourites is The Proposal. I also love Nicholas Sparks' films, with my favourite being The Lucky One. My favourite book is The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks, I will never not want to read that novel over and over again, it is beautiful.
My favourite colour is purple and next favourite would have to be turquoise/sky blue.
I wear glasses and cuddle a teddy at night because I'm cool like that.
Another thing you should know about me is that I'm a STRICT vegetarian (not one of those that eats fish or such like) and I am 100% against animal testing- protesting against the world by only buying vegan and non-animal tested products.
I'm a Christian and have started finding God in my life much more lately than ever; mainly after reading the Conversations with God trilogy.
I believe in love, peace and hope.
2nd March: Passions
So I've covered some of these already in my Introduction but I'll briefly bullet point them here :)
In terms of family I live (when not at uni) with my Mum, Dad and sister. We get on well and recently (well, nearly two years ago) added another addition in the form of a bunny rabbit named Wish Wish. We live in a village about 10 minutes away from a massive shopping town.
In terms of extended family I see my Mum's side of the family more than my Dad's. In total I have 6 pairs of Uncles/Aunts and 3 cousins. I have one grandparent left (my Mum's mum).
I miss my family a lot when I'm away although it is really nice to have my own space and to be able to do things on my own terms.
4th March: 5 random things I love
5th March: If you won £20 million
I have no idea; I'd buy a house for my family and myself, donate lots to charity, set up my own counselling practice....
6th March: 20 Facts about Yourself
wowza, 20? Well here we go...
I've pretty much covered these anyway but will give you a quick low-down:
reading, art, yoga, walking, painting my nails, listening to music, singing, making collages, watching movies.....
And so we're on schedule today....
10th March: How you WANT the next 5 years to go
Well I'd like to find a partner, to feel better about my body and to have no need to wear make-up (i.e. I will have CLEAR SKIN). I'd be 24 so maybe on the verge of getting married/engaged.... first house? I'd be in a secure job that makes me happy and I'd be doing something to make a difference in the world by spreading love, joy and hope. I'd be more confident and happy and be able to enjoy life without unnecessary worries.
Right, I think that's enough for tonight. I'd better submit before it changes to 11th March and bore you with another post to read!
Nighty- night,
Ell <3 xxxx
Even though I've missed 9 days so far I'm confident I'll try and do the whole month (and will even back date to catch up)!
1st March: Introduce yourself
Hi! I'm Ellie, I'm 19 years old and am currently at university in my first year studying BSc Psychology. I've been blogging for a while now, but the most updated one is indeed Trouble Soul, it's more of a diary and permanent fixture in my life than the others.
I live in student halls (although really good ones) and live with 5 others in the flat; we get on relatively well.
I've struggled with lots of difficult things in my life and I'm told that this makes me a stronger person. I don't think I'd be here today without some special people in my life who have helped me through some extremely awful times.
My favourite thing to do is 'escape' from life; I am very passionate about reading and love sinking my teeth into a great book and when coupled with a cup of tea I'm in heaven. I also enjoy listening to music and singing (although that doesn't mean I'm very good) and I love art work too. I took A-Level and GCSE Art and have found my creativity again by attending a local art class in town.
I enjoy romantic comedies; one of my favourites is The Proposal. I also love Nicholas Sparks' films, with my favourite being The Lucky One. My favourite book is The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks, I will never not want to read that novel over and over again, it is beautiful.
My favourite colour is purple and next favourite would have to be turquoise/sky blue.
I wear glasses and cuddle a teddy at night because I'm cool like that.
Another thing you should know about me is that I'm a STRICT vegetarian (not one of those that eats fish or such like) and I am 100% against animal testing- protesting against the world by only buying vegan and non-animal tested products.
I'm a Christian and have started finding God in my life much more lately than ever; mainly after reading the Conversations with God trilogy.
I believe in love, peace and hope.
2nd March: Passions
So I've covered some of these already in my Introduction but I'll briefly bullet point them here :)
- World Peace and an end to Poverty (sounds cheesy but true)
- Art, Museums, Education
- The Environment; hearing the birds sing, walking by a lake, standing on a beach...
- Spreading love, joy and hope to all
- Music; singing and dancing your soul out
In terms of family I live (when not at uni) with my Mum, Dad and sister. We get on well and recently (well, nearly two years ago) added another addition in the form of a bunny rabbit named Wish Wish. We live in a village about 10 minutes away from a massive shopping town.
In terms of extended family I see my Mum's side of the family more than my Dad's. In total I have 6 pairs of Uncles/Aunts and 3 cousins. I have one grandparent left (my Mum's mum).
I miss my family a lot when I'm away although it is really nice to have my own space and to be able to do things on my own terms.
4th March: 5 random things I love
- Frozen Peas (as in eating them while they are still frozen).... I can't help myself
- Having a new toothbrush and new toothpaste tube at the same time and being the first to squeeze!
- Painting my nails
- Watching snow falling
- The sound of the recycling bin when you delete something on your computer
5th March: If you won £20 million
I have no idea; I'd buy a house for my family and myself, donate lots to charity, set up my own counselling practice....
6th March: 20 Facts about Yourself
wowza, 20? Well here we go...
- My name is just Ellie, it's not short for anything
- I have size 5 feet
- I got my ears pierced when I was 14
- I've been to 3 different schools across my education
- I wear glasses and swap them depending on my mood; my black plastic frames are worn to read or write essays
- Starbucks is much better than Costa, despite my dislike for coffee
- Angel Delight/Custard are the only way I regularly take in calcium
- One of my ears is bigger than the other
- My hair is brown/very dark blonde
- My favourite thing to wear is a trusty pair of jeans
- I've only had 4 phones in my life time (got my first when I was 13)
- I wear Dainty Doll foundation
- My favourite smell is a book shop
- I am a sucker for stickers and will do anything to get one
- I take escitalopram
- My favourite mug to drink from is my 'glee' mug
- I live in my coat; I'd be lost without it- its a comfort thing to me
- I'm very sentimental and love to keep things like tickets or cards
- I've never worn braces (although wish I had)
- I've never broken a bone.... touch wood....
- Still got it, Never Lost It~ by Louie Spence
- Safe Haven ~ by Nicholas Sparks
- tall, thin and blonde ~by Dyan Sheldon
- Conversations with God: Book 2 ~ by Neale Donald Walsch
- Conversations with God: For Teens ~ by Neale Donald Walsch
- Waterloo Road
- The New Normal
- Celebrity Big Brother
- The Apprentice
- New Girl
- The Big Bang Theory
- Glee
- Rules of Engagement
I've pretty much covered these anyway but will give you a quick low-down:
reading, art, yoga, walking, painting my nails, listening to music, singing, making collages, watching movies.....
And so we're on schedule today....
10th March: How you WANT the next 5 years to go
Well I'd like to find a partner, to feel better about my body and to have no need to wear make-up (i.e. I will have CLEAR SKIN). I'd be 24 so maybe on the verge of getting married/engaged.... first house? I'd be in a secure job that makes me happy and I'd be doing something to make a difference in the world by spreading love, joy and hope. I'd be more confident and happy and be able to enjoy life without unnecessary worries.
Right, I think that's enough for tonight. I'd better submit before it changes to 11th March and bore you with another post to read!
Nighty- night,
Ell <3 xxxx
Friday, 8 March 2013
Follow You?
Thinking point....
"I am the way and the life. Follow me."
If the whole world followed you, would you be pleased with where you took it?
~taken from Conversations with God: Book 2 by Neale Donald Walsch~
"I am the way and the life. Follow me."
If the whole world followed you, would you be pleased with where you took it?
~taken from Conversations with God: Book 2 by Neale Donald Walsch~
Friday, 1 March 2013
Self Injury Awareness Day
http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/siad
MARCH 1ST
SELF INJURY AWARENESS DAY
judge less, understand more
don't be ashamed of your scars (if you have any), they are a sign of strength, you survived!
speak up, wear something orange today
draw a butterfly or a heart on your wrist
help raise awareness
MARCH 1ST
SELF INJURY AWARENESS DAY
judge less, understand more
don't be ashamed of your scars (if you have any), they are a sign of strength, you survived!
speak up, wear something orange today
draw a butterfly or a heart on your wrist
help raise awareness
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